Defeated

Right now, as I write this topic.. I couldn't help to think that I was defeated. I thought things would be great since my Sweet told me that he would still marry me. I was so happy to know that at first because my plan is working accordingly but the saddest part was my Sweet left me. It was at my lowest and I have nothing that he left me. That hurts me so much, my Sweet could've stayed if my credit card didn't exceed and if I have money to give him! T_T Why is it so unfair? When all I did was to give him everything that I could so he wouldn't leave me. But here I am... He left me alone because I wasn't able to give him the motherboard and