Cry Cry

I thought talking with Kyle will do any good, but nothing happened. It just gone down the drain. I want him back, yet the time is up.

"sorry u had ur chance.but i made up my mind not to continue this anymore. mashado na masakit mga pinagsasabi mo saken so its tym na me to let go of u!" -Kyle

I had a narrow mind, so I don't blame Kyle for this. He wants me to shut up, I hope I can deal this myself. He doesn't even want to believe me that I'm really hurting so much right now, feel lonely, down, so empty, and lost. I have no one to talk to. I'm used to depend on him too much, because even if I'm stubborn and hard-headed, in the end of the day, I know I'm still with him and he's still beside me. But now, things changed, he told me that he learned to be "cold" with me. Once again, I can't blame him at all. Even if he doesn't believe everything I tell him, I can't force him either. He doesn't even believe me that I love him.

He wants all our communications will be stopped. Anyway, I don't want to destroy his life now. He's happy having a work. I should stop worrying about him and depending on him too much is one of my regret for life. Leaving all my friends behind just for him to appreciate me not opening some problems with them. Yet, it never came to the point that he praised me instead he keeps on telling me "as if you can do that".

Kyle and I are now history. I don't want to force him to love me anymore. He doesn't even care for me now. Based on our conversation - It's ok with him if I want to kill myself. All his answers are "OK" and "OK SABI MO EH".

I am really hurting..so much.. But it cannot reach Kyle.. What do he care about me? Nah.. Why should I think about him if he's not thinking or worrying about me..

...Mga taong iwanin nga naman...Kung ano-ano iniisip...