...New Years Eve...

It's almost year 2005. I thought it was a great new year's eve, but I'm wrong. To think that it's been a year since I want to be with my Sweet Weightless this new years countdown, he just got mad at me again. I feel like I've been broken into pieces since he keeps on shouting at me. I have no one to talk to, no one to share my problems with, and no one to calm me. I'm already scared on what's happening with my Sweet Weightless.. He has a deep anger on me that I don't know how to take it out from him. I just wish he'd understand me, but he won't let me speak or explain my side, instead, he just keeps on shouting at me.

He even told me to fix myself before he left me alone in prontera. Honestly, I am fixing and adjusting myself just for him but it seems that everything I do, for him it was a mistake. Why couldn't he listen to my side when I explain? I'm so scared now. He keeps on shouting at me since yesterday though..

Happy Holidays!! :D

Xmas @ Eastwood With My Sweet!! ^^

Powerpuff gurlssssssssss!! Ü


Xmas Tree! :D

Xmas Party!! Ü

My Sis Jhen!! ^^


-Team of Sir Emil-

Reminiscin'... Ü (Part2)

abc123... ^^


Avril & Marc Anthony *Rok On!!* :D


Bahay naminnn~ Maliit lamanggg~ /ho


IRL Blinker :D


Cow & Chicken! :)


Dimsum & Dumplings..Yummy!! :P~




Oktoberfest >:D


HeadButt *ouch!*


... ^^


Jamir & Weightless :]


Labada! Ü_V


Meowr!! >:D


Sunrise >_<

The Vision

I just want to share my vision with things that's going to happen in the near future. First, I saw how I will die. I was shot at the age of 20+. Second, if I live longer, I find myself looking after my Sweet to get well, because my Sweet would be sick at the age of 26-30+. It'll be something in the heart and he will have a stroke (I hope it'll only be a mild stroke if that happens).

Good Changes

My Sweet Weightless has changed a little. It's a good change though. I know we're both adjusting and I really hope this will make our relationship stronger. One question lies here: Is there any disadvantage if we made adjustments towards one another? That we should find out..!

Drunk?! T-T

... I don't know what to say... I shouldn't have told him anything that can make him think and ponder things about us... My Sweet is drunk now and I hate him!! T-T

Patience = Pagtitiis

It's easy to start and end a relationship, some can easily move on while some don't. As we all know, in a relationship, "trust" is the only important thing we need, but when we try to rummage the word "relationship", we always left the word "patience" that makes us end up with just a simple reason. Patience is one of the ingridient we also need in a relationship too. What made me say that? Let me share some conversation I had with a friend..
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m3ek0: duno..........
***: so ano plano mo?
***: mahal mo pa ba?
m3ek0: ...
***: ??
m3ek0: ndi kta masagot now..
m3ek0: sorry...
***: dahil lng dun ayaw mo na?
***: cguro nga di mo sya talga ganun k mahal
m3ek0: ndi mo lng alam kung anu napagdaanan ko na s kanya..
m3ek0: mahal na mahal ko sya..
m3ek0: pero ndi nya un nararamdaman..
m3ek0: wala na akong pride..
***: then u dnt deserve a guy like him
m3ek0: .........
***: kung sasaktan k lng din nya
***: 2 lng nman yan
***: its either amg titiis ka dahil mahal mo talaga
***: or iwan mo sya dahil mas mahal mo sarili mo
***: alin b dun?
m3ek0: .....
***: the question is sino mas mahal mo?
***: sarili mo or sya?
***: kc kung mas mahal mo sya kesa sarili mo then hindi k din mabubuhay ng wala sya
m3ek0: mas mahal ko sya....
***: then alm mo n gagawin mo
m3ek0: ndi ko naman minahal ang sarili ko sa totoosin e..
***: u shud stay with him kahit itaboy k nya
***: atleast pinatuyan mo n mahal mo sya dba?
m3ek0: but...
***: un ang importante dun
***: ok lng n mag mukhang tanga kahit minsan
m3ek0: may damdamin din ako...
***: kc pag nag mahal ka ganun talaga
m3ek0: ndi ako manhid para ndi ako nasasaktan...
m3ek0: tao ako...
***: yeah i know
m3ek0: may nararamdaman....
***: pero kelngan mag tiis para sa mahal mo
m3ek0: ....
***: diba ganun un?
***: pag mahal mo mag titiis ka
m3ek0: ya...
***: di nya lng kc alam ung halaga mo ngayon
m3ek0: pero..
m3ek0: hangang kailan un?
***: pero in time ma realize nya un
***: sana wag nman matagalan
m3ek0: ....
***: hanggang kaya mo
***: tiis lng
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I hope other people especially to all those who have relationship will understand my inner advice here in this message. Please try to analyze it..

Complicated

"Complicated", the word that best describes me. I'm different from all of other people that makes me to be so-hard-to-understand person. I grew up inside my room studying most of the time, but still I'm not able to be with the deanslisters; keeps on listening with our parent's arguement; locked up inside my room all alone; and I've been spoiled by my friends as well. Once I met a math teacher, she helps me to understand math. I know it's spoon-feeding to teach me but she gave me her patience. I've really enjoyed the math now, unlike the past, if I hear math, I cry first. The math teacher who taught me and gave me more of her patience helped me move on. I guess my Sweet Weightless don't understand that. He doesn't want any spoon-feeding while that's the only way I can learn. I also have some hard time with my brains, they're so slow, sometimes I forget lots of things. *sigh* I think my case is different from anyone. Oh well..! T-T I just hope one day my Sweet would understand that.. T-T

Website - A Success ^^

Alas! I've just made myself a website for my personal use in Eastwood City. http://www.geocities.com/m3ek0/index.htm Check it out! ^^

Weightless Shouts..! (*Ü*)