A Letter For My Sweet Weightless...

I hope my Sweet would be able to read this someday... This message is also for you, my one and only love, Sweet Lyle Ham... Please forgive me if I have to say this here..but..since we're through and you're going to Davao.. I might go to the states too... I'll just need to ask for some informations, plans and I'm ready to go... I think I'll go back to my bro coz I don't have you with me already.... I don't have someone else... Sweet.. Sorry if I wasn't able to fit in with you..eventhough I've tried my best... It's really been a pleasure knowing "Weightless" and "You (John Lyle Daquino Ham)"... I just want you to know that knowing you is a dream come true.. Thanks for everything, thanks for all the things you've shared with me... I won't forget it... And... Please do remember... I love you... so much.... I'll always will....

Imagining..It's Still Me and You...

This is the second day of my "own" life. I can still remember the first day (Jan.27) when me and my Bad Kitty broke up. I felt like my heart broke into pieces that I was about to die.. All these days, I've been trying to deal myself knowing no one is beside me right now. My bro isn't home yet.. Everynight I always end up drunk... I don't have someone to turn to.. Luckily my Sweet has his cousin and friends to share with. I know my Sweet Weightless hates me for sharing my hurting that's why I still kept it until now.. I've been so sad, down, depressed, regretting, struggling, and hurting. I've been trying to keep myself busy, but still I can't help but involuntarily reminisce that makes me cry so much.. I've been used to with my Sweet always beside me... I hope he could hear me say..I need him so much..I want him beside me..I want his hug..I want him to be beside me... I guess these things will be impossible since he told me he's waiting for me to ask him to marry him, that's when he'll come back to me... It'll take a long way to go for me to save some money for our wedding.. I hope he can still wait for me..but if he wants to find somebody else, I'd have to set him free...

Game's Over.. T-T

It's been a week since last thurs. (Jan.20), we had a misunderstanding but today has been a bad day.. Me and my Sweet Weightless just broke up.. I made a wrong decision and it was all my fault... I can't help right now but stay in bed, hugging my willow while crying... T-T I don't know who I can talk to, who I can share my problems with, and..share my feelings with... My bro wasn't here either.. T-T I hope..I'd feel better.......... *silence is better* ...............