Craziest Thing I've Done - A Night To Remember

I don't reply to Mr. Y or answer any of his call. Tonight, I was shocked that he was there outside our showroom when I went back. I'm a little bit guilty for asking him why he's there and what's he doing - he just told me that he texted me and I wasn't replying or answering his calls. I had a bad day today, lots of clients and wasn't able to see baby Jeimuzu at Eastwood that afternoon when he was there - wanting to see baby Jeimuzu so badly. So Mr. Y told me if he should wait for me after my work is done or if I want him out. Arr.. Can't do that since some of our agents also told me to get rest now, it's been whole day until 9pm. Mr. Y knew I haven't had my dinner yet, so we went to cheesecake. It was the first time he hugged me without any harassment. He just hugged me tight and keeps asking me if I feel better. I hugged him so long and he was holding my head on his chest. After, we went to his place to get some wine. We stayed at the playground, finish the bottle of wine, get some stories and things to tell and share, and he asked me if I feel more better. Next was the swimming pool! - God! water is cold, but I really missed it. Things went well, after in the pool, had shower and we headed to Dolce. I feel so happy and some of my problems and stress has lessen. I also met Luis from Wax Daddy at Nx. We had some chit-chat - told me about Kyle and stuff. We dance and drink till we wait for my curfew time. Luis took me home because Mr. Y got drunk. At last, Mr. Y got drunk!! I really had fun tonight!

What's Going On...

I don't know what's going on with Baby Jeimuzu... I really missed him so much.. I long for his hug and everything... T_T

I'm also thankful that he was able to text me one short message today after for so long... T_T

Song For The Day-14 ^^

Miami Sound Machine - Anything For You
Anything for you
Though youre not here
Since you said were through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on
And forevers been and gone
Still I cant figure what went wrong

Id still do anything for you
Ill play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I dont care and I dont need you
And though youll never see me cryin
You know inside I feel like dying
And Id do anything for you
In spite of it all
Ive learned so much from you
You made me strong
But dont you ever think that I dont love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things dont work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone wholl care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And Id do anything for you
Ill give you up
If thats what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I dont care and I dont need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know youll never see me crying

Dont you ever think that I dont love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things dont work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

Dessert! Dessert! Dessert! :P

Dessert Time (Buko Pie, Black Forest and Langka) with my Baby ^-^

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It's been 11 days I haven't seen Baby Jeimuzu..and my hugging syndrome is trying to attack again. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I've been in Eastwood to meet with my client and to Trinoma Exhibit. All I'm thinking was my Baby Jeimuzu.. Huhu.. T_T Thought of baking this Banana Cake for me not to think too much when I get home..


Baby Jeimuzu surprised me! ^-^ He called me twice and asking me my favorite color. He supposed to surprise me at Eastwood but I'm already home. I don't believe him when he told me he's outside our gate and wants to talk to me. When I got out of our house, he was absolutely there!! I can't believe that my Baby Jeimuzu is infront of me.. I want to jump and hug him so tight.. But after the things I've been holding back, it just makes me stare at him so long that he started to tell me if I still can't believe what I'm seeing that he's really there.. I just nod at him and don't know what to say. I got this flowers and 4 bars of Hershey's.. I've been speechless..and got the hug what I'm waiting for!..

Hugging Syndrome

It's been weeks that I'm holding back my Hugging Syndrome. It started when me and Baby Jeimuzu aren't seeing each other anymore because he's been busy. It's hard to stop all the hugging thingy..but I have to. I thought trying to get a big hug from Mr. Y would make me feel better yet nothing happened..I still long for my Baby Jeimuzu's hug.. T_T Even Red has been quiet and asking me why I'm not talking to him anymore - He told me I'm a snob.. Arr... T_T I just can't tell them that I only want my Baby Jeimuzu's hug... T_T

My Sassy Gurl

I thought I can start to watch love story movies again, but I think not. I start to cry after I watched this flick and remember all the things from past to present..

Mr. Y @ CityGolf

It's been almost 3 months past when Me & Mr. Y meet again. We met at CityGolf near Valle and Home Depot Ortigas, waiting for me while he's talking with his client. Things are a bit of different, he's been a hell sweet guy - coz maybe he's been trying to poison me - my heart and mind again. We went to his house and had some talk - bonding thing. He also gave me a big hug (how I wish he can fulfill the hug what I'm looking for), but it didn't.. :( He told me to go with him, follow what he says, I'm completely confused. I got home around 12AM, and he still wants me to go with him at Alchemy.. *Sigh* -___-

Forbidden Questions

Watta Game!! @_@

Song For The Day-13 ^^

Hinder - Lips Of An Angel
Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

By: Sir Rodolfo :)

Pink to Violet :D




Getting Ready.. ^-^

Thanks Baby...

Baby, thanks for being with me.. I don't know why I feel so safe and secure everytime you're beside me when I'm always troubled.. You never left me when you knew things aren't going well.. I don't even know how to show my appreciation, you are truly the best! You are like a rainbow that comes after the rain, an angel-sent to me and God gave you to me at the right time.. I'm so glad I have someone like you.. You're the only person who made me feel what's been truly loved.. From what I do to my past bf's, I felt it from you.. From asking and just going to see them to get a hug, sweetness, caring, understanding, biting, and etc., letting me realize and feel what I used to do with my past bf's - you exceeded everything.. It's so hard for me to put things down in words, what I really want to tell you can't get out of inside me.. Holding back everything I wanted to do and say, trying not to carefully study what keeps on telling inside me, afraid to look and learn what's in it.. For once in my life, I feel so blessed and loved having an angel-sent to me named "JAMES"..

Sometimes I even wonder what if I'm back with LR or Mr. Y.. Though they're still contacting me but for LR there seemed to be a little fuzzy between us lately.. :(

Jeimuzu In Katakana :P

Weeee! I'm teh ARTIST!! >:) Baby Jeimuzu's left arm with his japanese name. :P

Alarmed

Aug. 1 to Aug. 8, 2008
It has been very alarming that I had continous bleeding for almost 3weeks, went to lots of doctors for check up almost every other day due to my panic mode and stuff.