San Sebastian Carshow ^^

Go ERS!! ^-^

New Blog Address.

This blog will be re-direct to a new website address due to some personal reasons and issues.

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Changes - Guys nga naman..

Guys nga naman... - at first, sweet, thoughful, kind, considerate, understanding na akala mo kayo na para sa isa't-isa at akala mo sya lang ang makakaintindi sayo kahit na anong mangyari.. Just a thought. He changed a lot. He likes to go "solo" in whatever he do lately. He also told me... 1.) "Wag mo ng pansinin kotse ko" (Hey, are you sure about what you're saying? Why are you telling me that you know I'm interested in cars? You shouldn't have told me that I'm interested in cars too. Just realized that Lyle is somewhat right, he even told me na wag ko syang pakialamanan dati kundi hihiwalayan nya ako, same like you, I think you want that kind of howe), 2.) "Wag mo ng gawing issue pa yung mga lalaki"..something like that.. (I'm just joking about that), 3.) Note: Kim - "Kaya ng mga babae bumuhat ng mga mabibigat" (a. Did you know that I carry lots of heavy fliers "EVERYDAY" [Are they carrying all the things I do "EVERYDAY"?] b. Work for Landmark-Do this and do that? c. Go to errands such as getting stocks or raw materials by walking and commuting from North to South of Manila? Hindi yan dinadaan sa practice para matuto ka magbuhat ng mga mabibigat because I thought it would, pero hindi rin yan totoo dahil sinubukan ko yan hanggat bumigay na katawan ko sa mga dinadala ko last time at ayoko na maulit yon, depende yan kung gaano mo na ginamit ang katawan mo araw araw na para bumigay nalang sya agad!!). How can I be a perfect girl for you if I can't even be like Kim who can carry heavy things? How can I be a perfect girl kung lagi mali ang mga ginagwa ko at decisions ko lagi lagi. You even told me this many many times..."I'm sick and tired of you".. I'm emphasizing that to myself as how you told me, coz you're insisting that to me, whatever you tell me, I treasure it and keep in mind. And here we go again... Round and round... *Whoosh!*

Lust

Lust is bad. . . Is "X" healthy in a relationship?

Lyle's Family :)

Finally...
Here's the picture of Lyle's Family.
(Winsome of Grand Lethal, their cute baby, and Weightless of Insurrection and Pro-Blacksmiths) *Congratulations*

1st Anniversary ^^

Happy 1st Anniversary Sweetieby!! May we have many more annivs to come!! :D Love you so much with all my heart! :)

Nintendogs = Tamagochi

Nintendogs similar as Tamagochi. One of my all-time favorite game in DS Lite. They interact with you each minute and everywhere you go. I got myself a Siberian Husky named "Plushy", he is so cute, intelligent, but very stubborn. Pif! Pif! Pif! Anyway, I enjoyed his company since my Sweetieby gave the DS Lite to me and installed the games. You have to feed it, groom it, walk with it, and etc. on how you "really" take care of a "real dog". It's kewl! :D

"Milenyo"

September 28: Milenyo Calamity. The whole Luzon had a black-out. Milenyo had been a big disaster; lots of people were killed, cars were damaged, trees fall down, flood everywhere, billboards were also destroyed, aluminum sheets flew, and some glasses and buildings were damaged. It's really hard to live in modern days, you never get to use your mobile phones, games gadgets, cable tv, computer and internet. People tend to spend their time outside and causes traffic.

DS Lite :">

*Drool* My Sweetieby gave me a DS Lite - Black Version. It was really cool!! :) I can't put it down unless the batteries' empty. >:) *Will put the picture later* :D

BIG Picture Productions Blog

I can't retrieve the informations of the BIG Picture Productions Blog I've made. Someone changed all the details...

http://thebigpictureproductions.blogspot.com

*Sigh*

...Missing You...

1.) I miss the "old" you.
2.) I miss the way you love me.
3.) I miss your being sweetness.
4.) I miss the way you touch me.
5.) I miss everything in you!

YOU'VE CHANGED A LOT TOWARDS ME.

Stop. Read.

Though for the day:
I can't love someone who I can't depend on.

Money = Greed

Happenings for the past days:

1.) *Whew!* It's been so long since I've been working for my quota until for my next cut-off (August). I'm glad that all the hard work are really something worth accomplishing.

2.) Me and my Sweetieby had a little misunderstanding (I was the one who first provoke) and he walk too fast that I can't follow him (I was so scared because he was upset with me), but in the end, we compromise.

3.) My Sweetieby purchased a new Sony Ericsson Phone, W900 3G-Phone. It was one of my choices to buy.

4.) It was really an honor that my client from Hawaii, one of the Marriott's Restaurant Manager who purchased a unit from me at Newport - Marriott Hotel & Residential Resort last April came to Eastwood City. I thought he was about to give the 30% downpayment but he insisted that we'll meet again on Monday.

5.) Thinking that I should stop working first because all I'm talking about was how to get more MONEY and how I wish to be a multi-tasking person such as if I'm in Eastwood doing documents and papers of my client, I can also do other things at the same time. It's like that I'm a package the comes with a fax machine, xerox and scanner, that all of them can be use at the same time. That's how I value my time especially with work.

My dad and Sweetieby is right, I should not let Money go around my world everytime but all I can think about is that I want to earn lots and lots more money. I want to try and learn everything I see.

I also felt that I'm always talking with my Sweetieby about work and money, sometimes he just keeps quiet. Nakakawalang gana rin kasi paminsan na lagi nalang trabaho ang pinaguusapan that's why I understand my Sweetieby too. All I want now is to not rely on him too much first, because he won't hear anything from me instead of just work and money. Sometimes I keep on asking him about his company and work (The Big Picture Productions), I know that I'm interested in Events too that's why I keep on asking, however, I think of that as if he's on his rest day and yet he will still think of his company or work because of me opening the topic.

It's kinda lonely right now since I will force myself not to see my Sweetieby for almost 3days starting tomorrow. I'll see to it that I will follow that too because I want to stop telling him about work and money.

6.) I don't want to go home early if I have nothing to do because I'll only see and hear my dadidudez with tol downstairs and I'll just miss my Sweetieby so much that I always wanted to talk to him on the phone longer even if he's so sleepy already due to his work. I always feel the guilt of letting my Sweetieby stay awake because of me.

Happy Birthday Sweetieby!!

May 13, 2006 - Happy birthday Sweetieby!! :)












*Kaching* /gg >:)

Burberry Launch ^-^

Burberry Launch @ Fiamma Bar. I've got some of their contact numbers!! >:) Been the usherette, it was really kewl! :P I saw lots of purr-tee gurls and models too. Hihi!! Cookie Monster Modeee!!! >:D

"Selfish"

Just want to share my feelings right now with my blog because I just can't handle the pain I'm feeling right now. My Dad called over the phone and the maid woke me up. After our conversation, Sweetieby called over and I was still at my bed, pressing my face on the pillow, sleepy, so I was kinda saying those "hmm" thingy.

It breaks my heart when I learn that my Sweetieby is the first guy who told me that I'm "Selfish".

Yes, I've tried my best, but for him, it's not.
Yes, I've always ask him if he's ok or if there's any problem, but for him, it's not.

He asked me if I still love him? Why? Am I not giving him enough love?

.......

Thanks Sulley!

Sulley, thanks for the advice. I'll keep that in mind.

1 Comments:
Sulley :) said...
hey napadaan lang.. chismoso ako eh hehe actually just browsing around lang and nakita ko toh..just my two cents... you cant be plastic in a relationship.. why would you pretend to be someone your not?? that would be like he is in a relationship with another person and not you... white lies are still lies no matter how you look at them... not being able to voice out your problems with your love one means you dont trust him, if he doesnt want to hear them and just wants to have the good side in a relationship that can never happen.. everything has its ups and downs thats why you have each other to hold on to.. you can never be ok if you have a problem.. you can only BE ok if you you don't have any :)

Haayyy...

Due to some personal stuffs and rants I want to put here, I might change my blog's URL.

I just can't talk to the phone with my Sweetieby right now. I'm so scared. I heard him throw his things all over his room. I don't want to let him know that I'm shaking, crying, and scared of what he did. So I just texted him what I want to say.

He even doesn't know that he was the one who gave me strength and make me feel ok in all I do and feel even if I am sometimes down and a little confused. I bet he didn't hear that when I told him over the phone. I felt that he can't understand that. Yes, I rant to him because I want to depend and rely on him but how can I if he always wants me to be ok immediately? I'm not that kind of person, I am ME!! I just want to be ME!! Haayyy..

It is because I love Sweetieby so much that makes me say to him that I will prove to him that I will be strong and be a better person for him even if I can't do that 100%. Yes, I love him more than anything else that's why I'm doing this - I will try not to rant and depend on him right now, in that way, he won't tell me that I'm not following his advices where in fact, I am following all his advices. All he knew was that I'm not following it. Damn!! He didn't even now I was following all his advices and that he comforts me everytime I depend and rely on him with my rants and problems. Anyway, I thank him for that.

"Right now, I'm already decided!! Being a "Plastic" is ok sometimes, white lies maybe? I will prove to him that I'm always ok by not telling him any of my problems and rants. I won't depend on him and I will stand on my own feet (without Sweetieby), I will find other ways to let my downs, rants and problems out myself. All by myself! Amen!!"

*Whew* Wish me luck!!

...Can't Do...

I JUST CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT!!!!! HAAYYY... WHEN WILL I LEARN?!?!? WHEN WILL I UNDERSTAND??? HOW WILL I CHANGE MYSELF TO A BETTER ONE?????

I'm so pissed off with myself "again". Doing things that are not always right seems that I can't be the right girl for my Sweetieby. Damn! Of all the things I did, I just can't do it right!! I keep on asking myself what my Sweetieby always ask me.."Ano ba ako sayo?", "Do I deserve this?", "Bakit mo ako ginaganito?", "Anu pa ba ang kelangan kong gawin? Binigay ko na lahat ng support ko sayo.", "Ano pa ba ako sayo?", "So, pano na to ngayon?", and etc. Do I lack something from my Love? I really can't find any answers when he starts to question me those things. I love my Sweetieby so much, but I think I'm not the right girl for him because I can't seem to do things right!! Laging mali lahat ng ginagawa ko!!!

Yes, I want to rely on him, until when???
Yes, I love my Sweetieby, but I can't do things right!!!!!

There are lots of things inside my mind right now. Sometimes the thought creeps in that I shouldn't have met my Sweetieby after all that maybe he would have a better life without me. This might sound crazy but that's how I really feel.

Yes, I love my Sweetieby so much that's why I want to give him the best of everything!!
Yes, I can't leave my Sweetieby because I love him so much and he's been a great part of me...
Yes, He is always inside my heart...

Oh well......

Diploma @ MRT Station

What's with this Newspaper? Well, it's my Diploma at MRT Station!! :) Hehe! Every morning, lots of people used to get this newspaper and when they get to the train, all they do was read it. So, I got one for myself too! ^^ At MRT, I watch people going in and out of the train and suddenly realize that the day passes by so fast and people are too busy each day, to struggle throughout the day and meet new challenges in their lives.

Marina :P~

2 and a half Rice pleaseee!! >:)
Baked Oyster with Garlic and Butter; Shrimp; and Ginataang Pla-Pla.. Yummy!! :P~

Chick ^-^

Weee! I got the baby chick toy I've always wanted to have since I started to commute. :) All you have to do is turn the key, put it on any surface and it will start to walk and uses its beak to tap. It is really cute and I can't stop playing it!! ^^ Hihi!

To Kyle.

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll need someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you

Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

State of Emergency

The "State of Emergency" was declared by GMA this afternoon. Here are some photos I took from Villamor Air Base, Fort and Edsa Shrine. I was on my way to work; everywhere is traffic and lots of work and schools are closed especially in Makati. For me, my work doesn't have any excuses since I was in real estate. In fact, there are lots of sales when there's happenings such as today, rallies, welga, coup'd etat, people's power and stuffs. We've also talked to the armies to allow us to go inside the Villamor (Newport City) where my work was, but they just refused and turned us down. There are lots of armies, SWATS, tanks, and their equipments in the street; they were all armed with guns and ammos. You'll see media and press' around; RPN9, TV Patrol, GMA7, and etc. giving their own reports and interviewed some of the high ranked people. Sad to say, I don't know their names but I saw them and even talked to them by giving my invitations.

Casper?! -___- My Sweetieby, got mad at me, since I totally understand him because he was so worried for my safety but still I insist to go their by myself because of my "Imagination" thingy that my Sweetieby was always there beside me. I almost thought that he's gonna leave me because of what I just did; I panic and got scared than of the happenings today. /swt




*Tanks*


TV Patrol near Edsa.


Edsa Shrine early in the morning.


Song: "Gloria Step Down". This was taken beside our car.






GMA7 news reporter making his reports.

...Thank You...

Mami Teray - My one and only "Shock Absorber"!! Thanks for all the patience you've given me; the love, care, understanding, trust, faith, and your ears to listen everytime I rant. What can I say?! You're the best!! When I say it, I mean it!! You know me pretty well mami teray, I know you read me already, that's enough to prove the things I've just said. I don't know how to thank coz until now, he's been with me and he never did leave me despite of all my problems and rants. This guy is the only one who can take whatever I do. Why? It's because I haven't heard him say anything on me even if I know that sometimes I hurt him so badly and I shout on him; still you won't hear anything but he'll comfort you instead and make you smile. He has everything that no one can ever give to anyone else. Thanks for everything mami teray and I would also like to say sorry.

Smile :)

Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you.

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you just smile.

Valentines Day!! ^-^

My gift for my own this Valentines Day! :) Isn't it cool?! Mami Teray was right, I should have bought this long ago. Hehehe! ;)

Zahir

In the words of the Mongolian creation myth: There came a wild dog who was blue and gray and whose destiny was imposed on him by the heavens. His mate was a roe deer.

Thus begins another love story. The wild dog with his courage and strength, the doe with her gentleness, intuition, and elegance. Hunter and hunted meet and love each other. According to the laws of nature, one should destroy the other, but in love there is neither good or evil, there is neither construction nor destruction, there is merely movement. And love changes the laws of nature.

In steppes where I come from, the wild dog is seen as feminine creature. Sensitive, capable of hunting because he has honed his instincts, but timid too. He does not use brute force, but strategy. Courageous, cautious, quick. He can change in a second from a state of complete relaxation to the tension he needs to pounce on his prey.

And what about the doe?

The roe deer has the male attributes of speed and an understanding of the earth. The two travel along together in their symbolic worlds, two impossibilities who have found each other, and they overcome their own natures and their barriers, they make the world possible too. That is the mongolian creation myth: out of two different natures love is born. In contradiction, love grows in strength. In confrontation and transformation, love is preserved.

Cars Exhibit @ Eastwood

Here are some of the pictures I took at the Car Show Exhibit in Eastwood. I'm really glad that the other owners of the car were so friendly and they've opened their car for me to take photos. Thanks guys!! ^-^

Rosie Dunne

Rosie Dunne
By: Cecelia Ahern

Done! :) I just can't put down this book until I've finish reading it. What else can I say? I can relate to some of its line. A simple love-faith-dream story. You build, fulfill, and do your own dreams like Rosie Dunne, she was able to cope up, move on, and survive to stand right to its feet even if there's a lots of trials for her.

"Today I love you more than ever; tomorrow I will love you even more. I need you more than ever; I want you more than ever."

Awards Night

Awards night. I think this was my 3rd awards night I've attend in Eastwood. I was so happy that my manager and some of my friends got trophies and certificates. There have been special numbers, like dancing and bands such as Amadeus. I wish I could post the videos here but still I wasn't able to learn how to convert it yet. After the awards night, I went to my Sweetieby's house before I went home. Weeeee! Kawaiiii Sweetieby~ :P

New Bumper!! ;)

Whoala!! :P Sweetieby's new bumper!! ^^ I was really excited to see how they do the bumper, how they paint and how they install and align the whole thing. :) I was glad I was able to see it myself and of course I'm with Sweetieby for whole day in Banawe fixing his bumper. It was really kewl! ;)