...New Years Eve...

It's almost year 2005. I thought it was a great new year's eve, but I'm wrong. To think that it's been a year since I want to be with my Sweet Weightless this new years countdown, he just got mad at me again. I feel like I've been broken into pieces since he keeps on shouting at me. I have no one to talk to, no one to share my problems with, and no one to calm me. I'm already scared on what's happening with my Sweet Weightless.. He has a deep anger on me that I don't know how to take it out from him. I just wish he'd understand me, but he won't let me speak or explain my side, instead, he just keeps on shouting at me.

He even told me to fix myself before he left me alone in prontera. Honestly, I am fixing and adjusting myself just for him but it seems that everything I do, for him it was a mistake. Why couldn't he listen to my side when I explain? I'm so scared now. He keeps on shouting at me since yesterday though..

Happy Holidays!! :D

Xmas @ Eastwood With My Sweet!! ^^

Powerpuff gurlssssssssss!! Ü


Xmas Tree! :D

Xmas Party!! Ü

My Sis Jhen!! ^^


-Team of Sir Emil-

Reminiscin'... Ü (Part2)

abc123... ^^


Avril & Marc Anthony *Rok On!!* :D


Bahay naminnn~ Maliit lamanggg~ /ho


IRL Blinker :D


Cow & Chicken! :)


Dimsum & Dumplings..Yummy!! :P~




Oktoberfest >:D


HeadButt *ouch!*


... ^^


Jamir & Weightless :]


Labada! Ü_V


Meowr!! >:D


Sunrise >_<

The Vision

I just want to share my vision with things that's going to happen in the near future. First, I saw how I will die. I was shot at the age of 20+. Second, if I live longer, I find myself looking after my Sweet to get well, because my Sweet would be sick at the age of 26-30+. It'll be something in the heart and he will have a stroke (I hope it'll only be a mild stroke if that happens).

Good Changes

My Sweet Weightless has changed a little. It's a good change though. I know we're both adjusting and I really hope this will make our relationship stronger. One question lies here: Is there any disadvantage if we made adjustments towards one another? That we should find out..!

Drunk?! T-T

... I don't know what to say... I shouldn't have told him anything that can make him think and ponder things about us... My Sweet is drunk now and I hate him!! T-T

Patience = Pagtitiis

It's easy to start and end a relationship, some can easily move on while some don't. As we all know, in a relationship, "trust" is the only important thing we need, but when we try to rummage the word "relationship", we always left the word "patience" that makes us end up with just a simple reason. Patience is one of the ingridient we also need in a relationship too. What made me say that? Let me share some conversation I had with a friend..
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m3ek0: duno..........
***: so ano plano mo?
***: mahal mo pa ba?
m3ek0: ...
***: ??
m3ek0: ndi kta masagot now..
m3ek0: sorry...
***: dahil lng dun ayaw mo na?
***: cguro nga di mo sya talga ganun k mahal
m3ek0: ndi mo lng alam kung anu napagdaanan ko na s kanya..
m3ek0: mahal na mahal ko sya..
m3ek0: pero ndi nya un nararamdaman..
m3ek0: wala na akong pride..
***: then u dnt deserve a guy like him
m3ek0: .........
***: kung sasaktan k lng din nya
***: 2 lng nman yan
***: its either amg titiis ka dahil mahal mo talaga
***: or iwan mo sya dahil mas mahal mo sarili mo
***: alin b dun?
m3ek0: .....
***: the question is sino mas mahal mo?
***: sarili mo or sya?
***: kc kung mas mahal mo sya kesa sarili mo then hindi k din mabubuhay ng wala sya
m3ek0: mas mahal ko sya....
***: then alm mo n gagawin mo
m3ek0: ndi ko naman minahal ang sarili ko sa totoosin e..
***: u shud stay with him kahit itaboy k nya
***: atleast pinatuyan mo n mahal mo sya dba?
m3ek0: but...
***: un ang importante dun
***: ok lng n mag mukhang tanga kahit minsan
m3ek0: may damdamin din ako...
***: kc pag nag mahal ka ganun talaga
m3ek0: ndi ako manhid para ndi ako nasasaktan...
m3ek0: tao ako...
***: yeah i know
m3ek0: may nararamdaman....
***: pero kelngan mag tiis para sa mahal mo
m3ek0: ....
***: diba ganun un?
***: pag mahal mo mag titiis ka
m3ek0: ya...
***: di nya lng kc alam ung halaga mo ngayon
m3ek0: pero..
m3ek0: hangang kailan un?
***: pero in time ma realize nya un
***: sana wag nman matagalan
m3ek0: ....
***: hanggang kaya mo
***: tiis lng
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I hope other people especially to all those who have relationship will understand my inner advice here in this message. Please try to analyze it..

Complicated

"Complicated", the word that best describes me. I'm different from all of other people that makes me to be so-hard-to-understand person. I grew up inside my room studying most of the time, but still I'm not able to be with the deanslisters; keeps on listening with our parent's arguement; locked up inside my room all alone; and I've been spoiled by my friends as well. Once I met a math teacher, she helps me to understand math. I know it's spoon-feeding to teach me but she gave me her patience. I've really enjoyed the math now, unlike the past, if I hear math, I cry first. The math teacher who taught me and gave me more of her patience helped me move on. I guess my Sweet Weightless don't understand that. He doesn't want any spoon-feeding while that's the only way I can learn. I also have some hard time with my brains, they're so slow, sometimes I forget lots of things. *sigh* I think my case is different from anyone. Oh well..! T-T I just hope one day my Sweet would understand that.. T-T

Website - A Success ^^

Alas! I've just made myself a website for my personal use in Eastwood City. http://www.geocities.com/m3ek0/index.htm Check it out! ^^

Weightless Shouts..! (*Ü*)

Proposal In Lutie... (*Ü*)

I just want to share that my Sweet Weightless proposed to marry me again in RO. I was shocked he invited me to go to lutie on top of my favorite tambayan, the big strawberry ice cream cake haus and gave me a safety ring. It's too expensive though.. /pif ...(*Ü*)

Warning: Coldness!!

One of my Sweet's dislike was being cold. Honestly, he doesn't know that I've been hurt so much, I don't know how to deal with it because even if I'm not cold, my Sweet would always say I'm still cold. My Sweet Weightless is too sensitive that I need to have lots of patience too. I couldn't even meet his requirements. I know I did my best, but like I said, he doesn't seem to realize it.. He told me that our relationship might end up because of my coldness. I just wish I'd be a human who doesn't have a feeling at all, who doesn't know how to emote, who can bear tons of pain, who doesn't know what 'scared' means, who can be always a sweet gurl..in that way, me and my Sweet won't have a problem. I did all my best because I love him so much... I just hope that one day he'll be able to see it.. *sigh*

Tequilaaa~!! :P

I thought our date was cancelled today, I was really down and hurt because I long to see my Sweet already. I missed him so much. I never thought he'll surprise me, I was giving out my fliers until I saw him there walking towards me. I'm so shocked and I was really surprised, speechless and thought that I was only day dreaming when I saw my Sweet Weightless was there. As soon as he moves close to me, I hugged him so tight and almost cry because I long to see him and be beside him. Sweet Weightless and I grab some grubs from mini stop first, then we head to have some drink. We had some strong ice, baked mussels, and tequila..! :) It was my first time to drink a tequila, I liked it! My Sweet touched my head and brushes my hair while we are in the couch, I can feel his finger tips runs through it. I think it's true that drinking tequila makes you feel different and it's something you must try but know your limit as you drink it. Safest dosage?! One shot will do! ^^

My Stuff Toy Collection (*Ü*)

My christmas wish last night from my Sweet Weightless has come true. He just gave me a Spore Doll! ^^ My stuff toy collection has been completed, but one thing that no one can ever had was my ragged-doll `Lyle Alchemist!! (*Ü*) He was the most precious doll in my collection! ;)

Reminiscin'... Ü (Part1)

There are lots of things we get into that helps us find new friends, find love, and learn from our experiences. I have been stucked on Ragnarok since I've learned how to play it. It's a game that has an interactions which makes you communicate with all the players in RO. A place that's called a Midgard has been another story for me even though it's only an Online Game. :)


My first friend in pRO, Memnoch from Avatar of Astaroths Guild! :) He tanked me until I became an assassin. He's very kind, sweet, and helpful. ^^


My first character assassin named "AnGeL"! :)


My favorite place, Comodo! :P


My second character was a swordsman named "YuNaBeBe". :) I'm with my friend Junglei who helped me using his healing clip. I didn't even know he's a GM from Dark Matter Guild until I became a Knight, he invited me to join his guild. Our guild was the best, because we always had fun and those bonding thingy which makes us solid. ^^ We even came up to an idea we'd beat Untouchables. :D


My third character named "*~ParFaiT~*". :) Parfait has been trying to buy a Wind Katana until my friend sulley helped me get one which I got "Weightless' Wind Katana". Beautiful name huh? :) After my swordsman became a knight, I tried to look for Wind Pike again, but this time, I saw Weightless vending in Prontera. I've tried to ask if I can trade my items with his Wind Pike because I would like to collect his elementals. But he said "NO!" T-T I've tried to ask for his Wind Pike lots of times until I decided to ask if I can have it trade with his own elemental Weightless' Wind Katana for his Weightless' Wind Pike instead, but he said "NO!" again. I got lots of rejections with this Weightless guy, until I tried to save some zenny and buy a nurse cap. Maybe if he sees me, he'll accept my trade for his elementals. Sad to say (nauwi sa wala and no zenny because of the nurse cap.. T-T), that's the last thing I've asked from him because, he reject my offer again. This time I decided to try to save some money to be able to buy it from him. My bro helped me level up Parfait until she became a priestess. Then one day I saw Weightless in the Prontera and sat beside him giving me a "/omg" emoticon. ;) hihi.. Again, I was turned down. T-T Oh well, I might as well save my zenny for his elementals. T-T


The loneliest new year I've ever had if it's not with Memnoch. At first I was using my assassin in Last-Alliance Guild were I met Weightless' girlfriend, Baby Ria. They're so sweet, they keep on shouting I love you's in the guild chat, I envy them so much. While Mars and I are fighting, I wasn't able to be with him in the countdown. I changed my character to Parfait and meet Memnoch in Prontera to spend the new year with him. He even gave me a gift I always bring with me, a hide clip. ^^ Days went by, I tried to forget Weightless while me and Baby Ria became close and starts to trade a load to zenny or a load to items. There I started to save some zennies and I was able to have some items. ^^ Month of February came, I met Weightless in Prontera again and checked on him by saying "hi! how are u?", I didn't know he was having a bad day and typed lots of messages that I can't even find my friends' messages because he typed too fast. -_- That's when I was able to talk with Weightless. Since then, I've able to talk with Weightless until he wants me to find him a girl to date on Valentines.


Feb.14 - Until he asked me to date with him.. (*Ü*)


Feb.15 - His proposal to me if he can marry me! (*Ü*)


The view I can't forget, it calms me down. ^^


The first headgear he gave me was the Erudite Circlet, which I was saving my zenny to buy one. I was really suprised he gave me one. (*Ü*)


We decided to meet at Robinsons. I was so nervous that day, I'm going to meet Weightless! :)


Alas! They met!! :D


-24/7 Weightless' Angel-


Our pics.! :)


ProBlackSmiths.Org's first agit in Prontera. YEAH! :D


My +6 Santa Hat!! >:D


Mar.19 - Our Wedding Day (*Ü*)


My Preciousss..! (*Ü*) It's a suprise from Weightless! (*Ü*) I'm speechless when I opened my account Parfait was wearing a Tiara.. (*Ü*)


Our first baby Weightless.. ^^


Even though she's old enough, she's still our baby.. :)


Geffen Agit! :D


Hunt with atta-bro! >:D wakakakak!


Weightless gave me this bonggun pet that's named after him. ^^


Our Family Pic. :)


Shopping at Prontera?! :D


Something new eh? Ü


Do not sleep during PVP!! >:D


Me and My Baby Sasquatch! :)


-Weightless' Angels- Ü


At the top of a big strawberry ice cream cake haus was one of my favorite tambayan in Lutie.. ^^


At the beach with Weightless who keeps on stepping on the starfish! /pif

See how things happen. Even if this is only an Online Game, it has been sentimentally valued by Parfait and me, it will always be a part of us. Everything we've shared with someone will always be a treasure in our heart that will be with us until we grow old. ^^