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I don't know what I'm feeling right now, all I know, tears keeps falling involuntarily from my eyes. Seeing my Sweetieby hurt himself after he heard about Lawrence & after I remember Lyle again when my Sweetieby asked me if I know how it feels when you saw someone you love hugs other person. I know how "MUCH" that hurts because it was in Malate that I saw Lyle hugs Joanne, not letting them know I was there standing at the middle of the street looking and staring at them hugging and they were so happy while the rain pours down on me. As Lyle turns his head to where I was standing, I ran fast and find something to cover me so they won't be able to see me. Malate was a nightmare for me, only my Sweetieby changed it somehow because after the night I saw Lyle and Joanne at Malate, I never stepped on that place again. Until I went there with bro and other PC's for GirlText promotions, I thought that I won't remember anything once I go to Malate, but the moment we had a grouping and they pick the streets where we should distribute, I remember everything as what had happened in actual. You guys might wonder how my Sweetieby changed Malate from nightmare into a fairy land? It is after the work in Malate when we first text. Anyway.. My Sweetieby didn't know that I was crying because I really understand how much I've hurt him and I feel the pain I've given him. I felt it much more when he asked me about some stuffs that reminds me of Lyle and Joanne. Oh well, what can say? I'm still thankful that my Sweetieby opened up to me & at the same time I'm so happy that I was able to tell him about Lawrence, I was so guilty though, because I can't keep things from my Love except for this feeling tonight, I really have to because I can't hold back my pain and tears anymore plus the thought that my Sweetieby hurt himself. It really hurts me more if I knew that it is because of me that my Sweetieby hurts himself not only emotionally but also physically.. It's too much for me to take it, I can't stop my tears fall from my eyes even if I like to stop crying, because I love him so much and I don't want to hurt him.. I'm really really sorry my Love..! I'll make sure you'll never feel that way again ever.. MARK MY WORD!!

My First Message

As I turn the pages of my notebook, I saw this message, I remember I wrote this when me and my Sweetieby were at the girltext UERM. Just want to share it here in my blog.

Oct.22, 2005
Have you ever felt that this could be the right thing that has happen to you? A guy that's unexpected, who came into your life & loves you for who you are. A guy who makes you feel complete & brightens up your day with his smile. Who understands & supports you in all you do. Kyle, the person I want to share my life with. I thank God for knowing him & I pray that he would be the one for me. A new chapter has arrived & I never realized that this would happen after all. He has everything, the love, caring & support. What else would you ask for? Finding him makes me feel complete & I can be me. Hope things between us will work out this time since we almost have the same experience from the past. I love him so much! Hope that this would be the greatest story love has ever told! :)

/lv (*Ü*)

My Christmas Costume!! :D

My Christmas Costume!! :D


Big Pictures Christmas Party :P

Weeeee! :)

Weee! My Sweetieby's eyeglassses and my favorite teddy!! ^-^

One of the Boys!! :P

One of the boys!! :P I've been with my Sweetieby in Banawe to have his amplifiers setup before we went to searchbox. It was really cool because if I'm with my Sweetieby, I learn and see lots of new things. All my curiosity and my likes are there too, so even though I wasn't able to do it, I can see someone else do it and learn something from them by only looking on how they do it. One of the example is when we were in Banawe, I used to like to do those stuffs such as installing gadgets like guys do. While the guy was installing the amplifiers in my Sweetieby's car, I try to get some idea on how they do it. Sometimes, I used to imagine myself doing those stuffs. :P Haha! I really find it very interesting and fun! :)




My Sweetieby's Amplifier :)

Song For The Day-5 ^^

Coco Lee - Magic Words
[Verse 1]
I want you to come to me when you're feeling down.
Knowing I can count on you during hard times.
We will find a way but it won't come easy.
When the yearning fades away, do we wanna stay?

[Verse 2]
Trying to be strong for you like you're strong for me.
Looking at you holding up so easily.
When I'm having doubts about what I'm feeling
And future worries are darkening my mind.
That's when you come around.

[Chorus]
And you just say that magic words and everything is fine again baby.
You just touch me like I love and loving you feels new again...mmm yeah.
Sometimes I can get kinda low and I just wanna walk away (from you).
Then you just say the magic words - oh baby - and I feel the sun shinning down on me again.

[Verse 3]
I know I can be a pain to you at times.
I just wanna find a way to compromise.
I gotta learn to deal with you going your way.
And though you can't be here with me sometimes.
I can't wait till you come around.

[Chorus]
And you will say that magic words and everything is fine again baby.
You will touch me like I love and loving you feels new again...mmm yeah.
Sometimes I can get kinda low and I just wanna walk away (from you).
Then you just say the magic words -oh baby- and I feel the sun shinning down on me again.

[Bridge]
You belong to me.I belong to you.And the feeling's true.
A sense of security.
I love you baby.
And I know you love me too.
When you say the words, the special words, the magic words...
When you say you love me.

[Chorus]
Say that magic words and everything is fine again baby.
And you just touch me like I love and loving you feels new again...Oh yeah.
Sometimes I can get kinda low and I just wanna walk away.
Then you just say the magic words -oh babe- and I feel the sun shinning down on me again

Damn Me!! >.<

This is me. The "MAD-GURL".. Arghhhhh!!!!!!!!! What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?! I dunno! Oh well, I keep on forgetting I was not with people who I can rant and shout with always. Some kind of stupid that I really really hate myself. SO....!!! *Sigh* Treatment! Treatment! Treatment! 1.. 2... 3.... I should calm down "again". I couldn't always be like this. Shouting and doing some high voices are no good or else I'll just end up losing my Sweetieby. Arghhhh!!!! So mean... -____- I know that I've been like this since what happened with Lyle, I'm totally damaged and just used to shout and voice out all the hurt and pain inside me that I hope I could let it all out and sometimes I start to say bad words too much. Mami Teray was one of the guy who helped me with such treatment and stuffs that I already told him that I don't want to be that kind of person. He promised me that it will be okay and I can change that in time. I find it hard for me. Am I still damaged?! Kuya Baitz told me, I am... I hate to hear that but I guess it's true because of the things that just happening right now. This is not me... I don't want to keep on shouting... I don't want to go back on my treatment... No more shouting... I'll try to do the things I should do when I'm like this. I used to sing, my daily routine.. I'd rather sing than go back to my treatment. I should always remember that I'm the only one who can help myself right now...

Last Day of BPI Event ^-^

The Big Pictures :)

aByzKyLex's Website

Weee! I had already made the scratch for my website.

Check this out!!
http://www.geocities.com/abyzkylex/

It's not yet done, I still need to update lots of things! hihi.. :)

Song For The Day-4 ^^

Jose Mari Chan - Perfect Christmas
My idea of a perfect Christmas
Is to spend it with you
In a party
Or dinner for two
Anywhere would do
Celebrating the yuletide season
Always lights up our lives
Simple pleasures are made special too
When their shared with you

Looking through some old photographs
Faces of friends we’ll always remember
Watching busy shoppers rushing about
In the cool breeze of December
Sparkling lights, all over town
Children’s carols in the air
By the Christmas tree
A shower of stardust on your hair

I cant think of a better Christmas
Than my wish coming true
And my wish is you’d let me spend my whole life with you

Sinong Di Mababaliw Sa Ulan?! :P

The second night of the event was really great even if it's raining. For me, it was also a successful event. I just submitted everything to the Lord if what's the best thing to happen. It rain and everyone thought that the event will not be able to go on since they weren't able to rent a tent for their event due to BPI's late decision.

Alas! The rain stopped and the childrens choir CMG and CYO sang, I see groups of people starts to gather after the rain, although it's kinda late already but still I was so happy that they were able to perform their numbers. ^-^


Rain, Rain, Go away, Come again another day! :)


Children Mass Group (CMG) and Catholic Youth Organization (CYO)


I'm sooo addicted to my one and only love Sweetieby Kyle!! /lv

My Sweetieby Kyle ^-^

"I love you so much Sweetieby!!"

Kyle, my one and only love. I loved him so much more than anything else, I hope he knows that. I want our relationship to last forever... I will give you all my love, care, understanding and support that would make you feel my love for you is really something you won't be able to find it with anyone else.

"What a gurl wants? What a gurl needs? = My Sweetieby Kyle"

The uniqueness and rareness of love that my Sweetieby has given me is what a girl would always wanted to have. A guy who will knock off your feet by letting you feel his love and loyalty, who'll always be there for you and understands you in all you do and what you've been going through. Someone who don't forgets you even if he's so busy and who treasures and keeps you always beside him and in his heart. Kyle, a perfect guy you can't afford to lose or else you'll just end up blaming yourself for losing him.

"IP Address: kyle.143.44.adiktus"

Waaaa! "ADIKTUS"!! The one I've been fighting right now. I can't sleep because of my stubborness or maybe because of the medicines I took up awhile ago and ate some parfait with my Sweetieby at Cafe Breton in Greenbelt that makes me feel this way. GRRR!! I still want to make some lambing with my Sweetieby!! I know I have to let him take some rest, he hasn't even had some sleep for almost a day, me being selfish should be stopped...

Trust God

It was the first day of my Sweetieby's BPI event in Greenbelt. I'm glad that it was very successful since one of the reason I know is that I prayed to God that it won't rain, He answered my prayer. Everyone gathered closely as they watch the ballerinas and The Company sings. After seeing the event, I was hoping that tomorrow, the choir I referred to my Sweetieby would also be a big success and that people would like it too.

Song For The Day-3 ^^

Rivermaya - Hinahanap Hanap Kita
"Adik sa'yo", awit sa akin
nilang sawa na sa aking mga kwentong marathon
Tungkol sa'yo, at sa ligayang
iyong hatid sa aking buhay
tuloy ang bida sa isipan ko'y ikaw

Sa umaga't sa gabi sa
bawa't minutong lumilipas
Hinahanap-hanap kita,
hinahanap-hanap kita
Sa isip at panaginip,
bawa't pagpihit ng tadhana
Hinahanap-hanap kita

Sabik sa'yo kahit maghapon
na tayong magkasama't parang telesine
Ang ating ending Hatid sa bahay n'yo
Sabay goodnight,
sabay me-kiss, sabay bye-bye

Sa school sa flag ceremony
hanggang uwian araw-araw
Hinahanap-hanap kita,
hinahanap-hanap kita
At kahit na magka-anak kayo't
magkatuluyan balang araw
Hahanap-hanapin ka,
hahanap-hanapin ka

"For A More..."

For a more...Tempura @Saisaki!! /heh


For a more...Animation-Like!! ---> @_@

Dec. 8, 2005 - Our 2nd monthsary :)
It was the first time that a guy took me to a "eat-all-you-can". Before, I always find someone who can I invite to eat with me for that kind of meal. :P Anyway, this was our 2nd monthsary, I really hope that things will work for the both of us. ^-^

BTW, I kinda got worried on my Sweetieby which he was also so tired and stress on his work due to lack of their employees and some rush needs. I understand my Sweetieby so much and I'm grateful that I was the one he shared his snap thing with. I hope I could help him carry some of his loads inside of him. I saw my Sweetieby how he handles this kind of things and I also agree with him that it is a mental stress too. I'm so happy that after my Sweetieby took some nap, he was able to recover again. What can I say?! Idol ko talaga to! :D I believe in him and he was my inspiration, that's why I know he can do it. ;) Goodluck my one and only love.. Mmmmm! Mwaah! :x

Model-Like Sweetieby!! ^^

Model-Like Sweetieby!! >:)

Rainbow :P

"...There's a rainbow always after the rain..."

My Sweetieby got me this picture while we were waiting for a parking in Greenhills. I remember when I was a kid, I used to dream that someday I could get into the end of the rainbow so I could climb on it. :) Hahaha! I've never taken a picture of 2 rainbows at the same time before since all I've been with will only think I'm insane taking such pictures. I'm so happy my Sweetieby got me one! ^-^ Thankies Sweetie! Mwaah! :P