FF8 Revised!! ^^

My pRO Wedding!! /lv (*Ü*)

Monday, March 28,2005
[12:31:28am]


I was shocked when my Sweet asked me to save in west kafra prontera. I passed my 1.5M zenny to him and we went to church silently. I was really speechless that night since I was about to marry my Sweet Weightless in-game!! My dream came true!!! (*Ü*) I hope there will come a time that I'd be able to see me and my Sweet in an IRL wedding too!! hahaha! peace sweet! Ü_V


Our honeymoon in Orcville! This is where we had our first date in RO too. /lv =^^=




After the honeymoon, we went to tambayan. ^^ Takaw mo Sweet!! /pif

Our dress can only be wear for an hour. We had a ring that has skills which can summon one another beside them. It is really kewl!! Me and my Sweet Weightless have tried it especially in Geffen, Comodo and Prontera. (*Ü*) Waahhh.. This is really a dream come true to me and I can't forget this day!! (*Ü*)

Unfinished Posts (Part3)

Song For The Day-2 ^^

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what your dreaming
Wondering if it's me your seeing
And then I kiss your eyes, and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you, right here with you
Just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Another Day To Shed A Tear

I can’t stop myself from crying since last night, I realized that it’s not easy to love someone when you know he’s cold, no communication, and you feel that he doesn’t value you somehow. A minute or a second of greeting that would even hurt him so much if he did. Name? Oh, I don’t want to mention it but let me tell you that he’s the guy I’ve been wanting to be with in my life, my boyfriend, my fiancé, and my soon-to-be husband. I loved this guy so much and I even gave him ‘all’ of me that is because I love him so much more than anything in this world. My body isn’t following all my systems and my heart hurts so much knowing that I can’t even feel his presence even though he’s there. A tear I shed everyday for my love means so much to me. A tear, my friend, to ease a little pain that I feel when it starts to come down from my eyes. Yes, the pain would go temporarily away but it wouldn’t stop there until you’ve been with your love one again. Imagining and daydreaming that you and the one you love are back in each other arms again. If you ever wonder, this is ‘ME’ and this is ‘TRUE’. Equation? My Sweet = My World & Everything. I loved him so much!!

Unfinished Posts (Part2)

It's all about a commercial of "Weightless Crystal Spring Water"!! :P~


Nakakalasing ba ang "Weightless Crystal Spring Water" Baby ko?! Why are you blushing?! >:D Wakakakak

Unfinished Posts (Part1)

I just want to share these unfinished posts. It's really kewl!! >:D


Have you ever seen a Tinkerbell fan?! :D Take a peek!! =^^=


Shot1 - He was shocked!! /omg


Shot2 - I thought I saw a Tinkerbell! ^^


Shot3 - I did!! I did!! I did saw a Tinkerbell!! /heh :D

I Hate This Blog!! T_T

It's because of you BLOG!! T_T My Sweet left me!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T

Song For The Day-1 ^^

Utada Hikaru - First love
Saigo no kisu wa tabako no flavor ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaoriAshita no imagoro ni wa
Anata wa doko ni irun darouDare wo omotterun darou
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love songu
Atarashii uta utaeru made
Tachidomaru jikan gaUgoki dasouto shiteru
Wasuretakunai kotobakari
Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naite iru
Anatawo omotterundarou
You will always be inside my heart Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made
You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever

My Perfect Shot!! >:D

Whoaaaaa!! *Drools* :P~


Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! >:D *~ParFaiT~* wears my favorite dress! :D I hope someday she can wear this in RO like the other girls too. /lv ^^

I Understand...

I was looking for my contract at my tigger bag when I saw a yellow dinosaur. I play it for awhile since I remembered that my Sweet gave it to me. ^^ Just want to say that I'll try to understand my Sweet...and...I just love him so much!! It's here where I can only tell him I love him so much and I missed him so much... Need to bear with all my problems first until my Sweet comes back coz it's too complicated and I can't share it to my Sweet for now. *zipppppeddddd* ^-^ Love you and miss you Sweetieeeee!! ^^

GMA 7, A Big WAAHHH!! T_T

Waahhh.. My officemates and I was cornered by those GMA camera man and interviewer as we go to Mcdo this lunch. -__- I really don't want to be interviewed but the guy who was kinda in-charge with them insisted! Grrr!! They locked me up to a corner and he started to roll the camera!! T_T I had almost 3-cuts from the camera since at first, they took a shot of me saying "Anu sasabihin ko?!" (with my hands up). -__- The man who was in-charge told the camera man to stop. -__- Sis Cheska told me that I shouldn't worry coz she'll coach me to what I should answer and that made me kinda nervous. The guy who's in-charge shouted to roll again and the first question was: "Are you beautiful?", I couldn't answer and look at Sis Cheska coaching me to say "Yes!", so I answered "Yes!". -__- The man who's in-charge there said "Cut!" again. -__- The girl told me that I should answer in complete. Before the camera starts to roll again, Sis Cheska coached me to say "Yes, I am beautiful!", so copy what Sis Cheska coached me. T_T Waahhh!! A big WAAHHH!!! T_T Huhuhu.. After the interview, I just can't believe I've just said "Yes, I am beautiful!!". @_@ Grrr!! I hate that whoever is in-charge guy!! /PIF

Reminiscin'... Ü (Part3)

After browsing my whole blog, I felt happiness and sadness joined together as they fly in the air around me. I missed how my Sweet had loved me. T-T My tears can't stop falling while I try to compose this message. I can feel the BIG difference from what my Sweet is at the past to the present. I just wish I can have my Sweet back to what he is to the past and how he loves me so much. I am trying my best but I can't seem to get some of his time because he hangs around with his friends and others than me. I don't even know where he's going everynight. It really hurts to know when the others know where he has been or where he was where in fact I'm his gurlfriend who doesn't even know anything when they ask me. I just wish my Sweet would be open with me like what he's sharing with his friends. I want to feel I'm his gurlfriend. I want to have him back to how he loves me in the past. T-T I missed my Sweet whom I known for so long.. T-T

How Come?

1.) How come my Sweet told me that he can't text when I heard someone saying he texted him/her?
2.) How come my Sweet keeps on telling me that he doesn't have money, as in 0 money when he plays at 129 and almost every night he's out?

How can I be such a fool?! Am I just pushing myself to my Sweet when he doesn't love me anymore? He's been different, oh yeah, I know! I don't even know my Sweet now. Why is he into that "bangbus" thing?? That's bad right? I saw it at the site!! Am I so gullible?

*Sigh*

Just stay calm angel!! You might take some medicines again just to forget all your problems! Sheesh!! I just love my Sweet so much, while he doesn't even know that and he doesn't even see that! Oh God! I'm panicking again!! Dammit!! More pills!!!!!!!

Weightless Is Different From Now On

It has been yesterday since we had a talk and I'm really happy to be with him. Lots of things has been changed since my Sweet Weightless starts to smoke and he won't be my Sweet as I used to know. He didn't even return my I love you to me. I must learn to accept that!! Btw, my mum is asking for our birth certificates and transcript of records this afternoon. I was expecting my Sweet would support me and calm me instead he just told me these things...

"yun nga. ayaw mo pero wala kang magagawa. goodluck na lng just in case."

"how can i help u if u wont help urself. cnabi ko na sau wat 2 do pero may consequence pla and takot ka, anong magagawa ko?"

"ano ba gusto mo sabhin ko? syempre ayaw kong umalis ka. pero if ganyan ka and parang wala nang pag asa ano naman magagawa ko? kaht pa pigilan kta ano magagawa ko?"

The words of my Sweet is striking, it is as if he doesn't care if I'm gone, but I don't want to think like that even if he told me that "goodluck nalang just in case". I don't even know if he still loves me or if he still needs me. In that case, I'm thinking if I'll accept my mum's offer. I think I might. All I'm asking is that my Sweet would support me or calm me...but NO! T-T *sigh* I'm so down I have no one to share with this problem. I need my Sweet to understand me, he just can't... T-T Support lng naman ask ko if hindi ko pinadala ung mga requirements ko, I can't fight this on my own, I need my Sweet's support and someone to calm me down... T-T Like I said...I should accept that my Sweet won't be the one whom I used to know... T-T I missed my old Sweet so much... T-T

/swt T-T

What am I talking about awhile ago? I just can't leave my Sweet!! T-T I need him and I love him!!!!!! T-T I won't give up!! T-T

A Liar

“…If the feeling is gone... Pls. don’t pretend... That you still love me... I can see it in your eyes... Though you try to conceal it... I can tell that the feeling is gone… All I ask… I just a little honesty… Though I know… That you’re not coming back to me… You know... I’ll do anything to make you stay… But I just have to let you go… If the feeling is gone…”

“…I’m so tired of being here… Suppressed by all my childish fears… And if you have to leave… I wish that you would just leave… Coz your presence still lingers here... And it won’t leave me alone…”

After hearing lots of songs, I’ve realized that my Sweet won’t come back to me anymore because of me being “A Liar”. It’s the end and I must face it. I still can’t accept the things he told me maybe because it was true that I’m a liar, I’m a pok-pok, I’m not a good girlfriend to him and, etc. Well, it’s true, I’ll just have to agree with him about that. Now, my Sweet can’t seem to forgive me even if time pass by. I’m trying not to expect too much and I shouldn’t expect my Sweet would come back to me. I should try to absorb that we’re really through from what he said to me “he wants me to leave him” and “he doesn’t love me anymore”. I know he hates liar, but I just want to say that I’m really sorry for myself because I wasn’t able to tell my Sweet about Artwork and because I tend to be “FORGETFUL” especially whenever I’m with my Sweet. I told my Sweet about me being forgetful many times but I think he won’t believe me that because to him I’m a liar. Why should I force myself to my Sweet when he doesn’t want me anymore? I know it’s time that I should accept things even if I know it hurts so much. I know that I let him touch me already and those things we have shared are the ones that will always remain in me. I won’t find another guy because I won’t let them know that someone has already touched me. That’s a promise I must keep or else to others, they’ll still call me pok-pok like what my Sweet told me “I’m a pok-pok”. It’s pulling me down and I could taste the soil, squeezing myself in the ground whenever I remember that. Everything is not going to be easy but I know it’s about time to let go when the person you love doesn’t love you anymore. I have to set him free if he wants to, that’s when you’re love will be happy. I can’t even change my Sweet anymore since he’s mind is already closed that I’m a liar. I can’t even prove to him since he doesn’t believe me anymore and how can I prove if he’s not here and if he won’t give me a chance? Let me clear this that it’s not that I’m giving up but there are times I should do what my Sweet wants. If he wants to leave me, I must learn not to force him not to leave me even if I like him to stay. First things first, if I forced him, he won’t be happy with me and we’ll just end up fighting like my parents. To what I saw from my parents, my mum still loves my dad, but my dad wants to be free, my mum won’t let go of dad, so my dad and mum tends to fight. It’s not easy to leave a person who’s been a part of me and who’s been always there to help me but I can’t ask my Sweet to stay with me if he doesn’t want to. It’ll just hurt the both of us, but if I’ll let go of my Sweet as what he wish for, I know I can see and feel he’s happiness that might help me understand him that he wants me to set him free could lead him to his happiness. I’ll just have to bear with this pain and I’ve been regretting for many days and crying all day long in my bed to what I did. Look what I've done?! I shouldn’t be forgetful!! T-T

Things I must face:
1.) My Sweet won’t come back to me anymore.
2.) My Sweet can’t forgive me even time pass by because to him I’m a liar.
3.) Anytime, my Sweet will have a new girlfriend.
4.) I’m a pok-pok!!
5.) He don't love me anymore.
6.) He wants me to leave him.
7.) He told me "Kahit na dinudugo ka na dyan or dugo na iniiyak mo dyan, wala akong paki-alam sayo!!"
8.) He gave all his word to me. T-T

These coming days, I should start to face these things since I need to understand my Sweet that he wants me to set him free and he doesn’t love me anymore. I must, because he already did this to Darlene and Baby Ria. It’s because they lied to my Sweet that lead them for break-up. That means I’m the third girl… T-T I couldn’t accept I’ve lost the one I love and to think I thought my Sweet is my destiny already. Now, I have to say it’s goodbye to our wedding too. I know my Sweet so well, if what he thinks it is, that’s fixed and cannot be changed. He already gave his word to me. T-T I’ve almost have 8,000php for our wedding for it was my surprise to him but it’s too late…I’ve lost my Sweet… T-T

I hope things will go well for you Sweet… I know you want me to leave you na and you can’t afford to stay with me because I’m a liar… But soon or one of these days if you’ll have a new girlfriend, pls. do tell her don’t be like me… T-T If she hurts you, I might be the one to kill her myself!! T-T

My last few words… “Sweet, I’m really sorry if I’ve been “forgetful”… Sorry if that means a lie to you… I’m regretting too much for being not a good girlfriend for you...I could have been good..but even if I’m not, I just want to tell you that I’ve really tried my best… Nasira lang ako sa sobrang makalimutin lalo na pagkasama kita nawawala ako sa sarili ko… Anyway, I hope in time you can read this… Honestly, I can’t promise myself that I can move on because you’ve been a part of me..so much…and I can’t accept that you’re gone… We’ve been together for almost a year and still, it’s been engraved inside me and no one can take that away from me..not even if I die… I won’t donate my heart… =_) You'll always be my Idol and my Sweet and who'll still be loving you secretly... Thanks for bearing with me for a year Sweet… It really means so much to me… I’m going to miss you… and… Don’t you ever forget…that… I love you so much…”

“…So before I let you go…I want to say…I love you…”

“…Letting go…is just another way to say…I’ll always love you so…”

Emptiness Within

I shouldn’t put this message here but my heart says I should. My heart beats faster and faster, I can taste the hurt and the blood that’s pumping inside my heart that could clog and stop my breath in any minute.

I don’t know if I’m still in my Sweet’s heart… T-T I feel so empty and lost without my Sweet… I want him to be beside me, I want to feel him and hug him so tight as if I don’t want to let go!! I have to accept the fact that it’s going to be like I don’t have a reason to wake up each day. T-T If only I can turn back the hands of time to do the things correctly. If I were given a chance, I’d really prove to him that I’ve changed. If only he can forgive me but it’s too late… T-T I hope he would still talk to me and try to fix things. I missed him so much… T-T